A family struggle as pandemic worsens food insecurity

Sharawn Vinson, front left, and family members and friends cheer for her daughter, Maddison Washington, 11, as they watch her virtual graduation from middle school in the living room of their three-bedroom apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Friday, Aug. 21, 2020. After months of pandemic isolation and living with the fear of hunger as bills piled up, Vinson and her kids continued volunteering to help feed their own community. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Sharawn Vinson, front left, and family members and friends cheer for her daughter, Maddison Washington, 11, as they watch her virtual graduation from middle school in the living room of their three-bedroom apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Friday, Aug. 21, 2020. After months of pandemic isolation and living with the fear of hunger as bills piled up, Vinson and her kids continued volunteering to help feed their own community. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Brooklynite Sharawn Vinson felt she had no choice but to send her 11-year-old twins to live with their father in North Carolina after the pandemic threw into doubt her ability to make sure they had enough food

NEW YORK (AP) — At the peak of the coronavirus pandemic this spring, Sharawn Vinson often woke up crying. A recurring thought was making the unemployed single mother desperate: That her kids could go hungry.

There was also fear of contracting the virus, which has disproportionately hit low-income Black families like hers. Meanwhile some of the largest protests against racial injustice in decades were transpiring right outside their window, after the family had experienced its own terrifying encounter with police earlier in the year. There were unpaid bills, and feelings of shame from having to go to a soup kitchen in search of a meal.

So Vinson made the painful decision to send 11-year-old twins Mason and Maddison to live with their father, six states to the south, knowing that way they’d at least be fed.

“I needed them to breathe,” Vinson said, wiping away tears in her living room of peeling gray walls in a Brooklyn housing development.

Vinson was not alone in struggling to put food on the table in this historically tumultuous year. In New York City alone, an estimated 2 million residents are facing food insecurity, a number that the city’s mayor estimates nearly doubled in the pandemic amid the biggest surge in unemployment since the Great Depression. The scope of the problem outstrips previous crises such as the Great Recession, according to those who are working to combat it, and it’s not going away anytime soon.

“It’s never been this tragic for such a sustained period of time. Since COVID hit, the numbers of people in line at food pantries and soup kitchens skyrocketed, and it’s not going down,” said Rosanna Robbins, director of food access and capacity at City Harvest, the city’s biggest food rescue organization. “And so I think for us it’s just adjusting to the fact that we expect there to be a real need for free food for a very long time to come.”

When New York schools closed in March, Vinson’s children lost overnight the free breakfasts and lunches they relied on in normal times. Grocery store shelves were poorly stocked, and her pantry was almost bare. She began skipping meals to make sure they ate, and having them wake up later to try to trick hunger by giving them two meals a day instead of three.

“You never realize how important schools are until you don’t have them,” Vinson said.

“I’d open the refrigerator and I’d see struggle,” she added, “and also sacrifice.”

Oldest daughter Jasmin, 25, and 5-year-old grandson Hunter were living at a homeless shelter but came to visit her at the Lafayette Gardens public housing complex, where the family would share whatever they could scrape together for lunch.

“It got to the point where the kids would unconsciously save a chicken wing for Hunter,” Vinson said.

The family was cooped up for weeks during lockdown, living on just $1,800 a month in worker’s compensation from an on-the-job injury Vinson suffered last year when she fell and tore her meniscus.

From the dusty kitchen window of their 16th-floor apartment, they could see the deserted basketball court, slides and monkey bars at the Classon Playground, closed due to the pandemic.

As she tried to stretch meals of spaghetti and frozen burgers, the kids would argue over everything from who got to control the TV remote to who got the last snack. “Everybody was depressed, angry,” Vinson said.

Vinson was no stranger to hunger, having been raised in poverty by her mom, also a single mother. Vinson had the first of her six children at age 18 and recalls struggling to pay for diapers and food. But from her mother she learned values that have helped sustain her in difficult times, such as grit and generosity.

She took comfort in prayer and gospel music. One song in particular spoke to her: Melvin Crispel III’s “Not the End of Your Story.”

“I know that this is just not it,” she said of getting through the pandemic. “There’s more, there’s something, it’s not the end.”

Across the city, lines at pantries stretched for blocks. Social distancing was complicating food distribution efforts, and many pantries lost older volunteers who stayed home due to high risk of severe effects of COVID-19. A network of churches, volunteers, city government offices, restaurants and immigrant centers stepped in to fill the void.

Vinson then saw a Facebook post seeking volunteers for a pantry that is run by Kiana Muschett-Owes, the owner of Katie O's restaurant, and nonprofit Rethink Food NYC, which helps fund meals for her initiative, Soul Food for the People. The pantry has provided hundreds of meals to people in need along with notes bearing inspirational prayers or good wishes such as "What doesn't kill you will build you."

“I said, you know what? That’s something that’s up my alley,” said Vinson, whose job before injury and the pandemic was at a shelter for people with mental illnesses and chemical addictions.

Vinson also felt she could set an example for her children. She began bringing Jasmin and the twins to help distribute the food as fellow volunteers, helping teach them values she got from her own mother. It was also a way to make sure her kids got at least one meal a day, from the pantry.

Things seemed to be looking up, but protests and clashes sparked by the police killing of George Floyd raised haunting memories of the incident from earlier in the year when police stormed the apartment building searching for a shooting suspect and pointed their guns at Mason as he was cleaning the litter for his cat, Shadow.

It traumatized the boy and made him angry at police, she said. One day this summer, as she sat outside watching the latest protest, a neighbor called out her name. Across the street, Mason was jumping up and down on top of a patrol car. Vinson ran over.

“And when I grabbed him and I went to chastise him, I was at a loss for words, because how do I tell you not to be angry when four of their brothers in blue had guns to your head?” she said. “How do I tell you not to retaliate?”

Soon after, she called her ex-partner in North Carolina, and on June 4 the twins headed south.

Living without them was hard, she said, but it bought her time to stabilize her ability to provide for them. She saved up food stamps and some money, and found a job working for the 2020 U.S. Census.

One day she asked the restaurant owner who ran the pantry if she could bring back some trays for her housing complex. That effort has since grown to dozens of meals plus groceries and protective face masks that she and other volunteers distribute each Saturday.

The twins finally came home in August, in time for Maddison to celebrate her remote graduation from middle school along with friends and family and for Mason to take part in the first practice of the Brooklyn United Youth Football season.

The police department apologized for the incident involving Mason and hosted him and a group of other kids and their families to discuss their concerns over pizza and chicken wings with high-ranking officers.

“These kids have been enduring a lot in the last couple of months, from the COVID wave to the Black Lives Matter, to the protesters, to the police brutality,” Vinson said. “And not too many times people stop and ask, How do they feel?”

The coronavirus outbreak has slowed significantly in New York compared with earlier this year. But times remain tough: Their rent is four months overdue, and the cable is about to be cut off. On a recent day the bathroom flooded, sending water running through the halls.

Still, Vinson feels fortunate.

“There’s so many people who are out here who are hungry,” she said. “I got my grandson, I got my kids and I got my life. What do I got to complain about?”

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Sharawn Vinson looks out the window of her 16th-floor apartment as she talks on the phone with the New York Police Department's Chief of Community Affairs Jeffrey Maddrey on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020, in the Brooklyn borough of New York. At the peak of the coronavirus pandemic this spring, Vinson often woke up crying. A recurring thought was making the unemployed single mother desperate: That her kids could go hungry.   (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Sharawn Vinson looks out the window of her 16th-floor apartment as she talks on the phone with the New York Police Department's Chief of Community Affairs Jeffrey Maddrey on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020, in the Brooklyn borough of New York. At the peak of the coronavirus pandemic this spring, Vinson often woke up crying. A recurring thought was making the unemployed single mother desperate: That her kids could go hungry. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Mason Washington, 11, stands in the kitchen of his family's apartment after browsing the refrigerator for a mid-morning snack on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020, in the Brooklyn borough of New York. The family has struggled to keep food in the cupboards during the pandemic: "It was hard feeding them three times a day," said Sharawn Vinson, his mother. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Mason Washington, 11, stands in the kitchen of his family's apartment after browsing the refrigerator for a mid-morning snack on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020, in the Brooklyn borough of New York. The family has struggled to keep food in the cupboards during the pandemic: "It was hard feeding them three times a day," said Sharawn Vinson, his mother. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Mason Washington, 11, reaches for a hug after being awakened by Sharawn Vinson, his mother, in their three-bedroom apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Mason Washington, 11, reaches for a hug after being awakened by Sharawn Vinson, his mother, in their three-bedroom apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Maddison Washington, 11, carries her nephew Hunter Stewart, 5, down the hallway toward her mother's bedroom at the Lafayette Gardens housing development in the Brooklyn borough of New York, on Thursday, Aug. 20, 2020. Washington's mother sent her and her twin brother to stay with their father in North Carolina for part of the summer while she saved money, food stamps and Pandemic Electronic Benefit Transfers (PEBT) to ensure the family had enough food when the siblings returned. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Maddison Washington, 11, carries her nephew Hunter Stewart, 5, down the hallway toward her mother's bedroom at the Lafayette Gardens housing development in the Brooklyn borough of New York, on Thursday, Aug. 20, 2020. Washington's mother sent her and her twin brother to stay with their father in North Carolina for part of the summer while she saved money, food stamps and Pandemic Electronic Benefit Transfers (PEBT) to ensure the family had enough food when the siblings returned. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Jasmin Vinson, 25, puts shoes on her 5-year-old son, Hunter Stewart, while visiting her mother and siblings at the Lafayette Gardens housing development in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Friday, Aug. 7, 2020. Vinson and her son currently live at a shelter for families in the Crown Heights neighborhood. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Jasmin Vinson, 25, puts shoes on her 5-year-old son, Hunter Stewart, while visiting her mother and siblings at the Lafayette Gardens housing development in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Friday, Aug. 7, 2020. Vinson and her son currently live at a shelter for families in the Crown Heights neighborhood. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Hunter Stewart, 5, helps pack and deliver food to residents of the Lafayette Gardens housing development on Saturday, Aug. 8, 2020, in the Brooklyn borough of New York. Stewart currently lives in a shelter for families with his mother. After he and his family struggled to put food on the table in the first months of the pandemic, they volunteered to help distribute supplies to neighbors who also were having difficulty staving off hunger. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Hunter Stewart, 5, helps pack and deliver food to residents of the Lafayette Gardens housing development on Saturday, Aug. 8, 2020, in the Brooklyn borough of New York. Stewart currently lives in a shelter for families with his mother. After he and his family struggled to put food on the table in the first months of the pandemic, they volunteered to help distribute supplies to neighbors who also were having difficulty staving off hunger. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Mason Washington, 11, center, warms up with teammates at the first football practice of the season on Sunday, Aug. 9, 2020, in Brooklyn borough of New York. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Mason Washington, 11, center, warms up with teammates at the first football practice of the season on Sunday, Aug. 9, 2020, in Brooklyn borough of New York. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Mason Washington, 11, runs a drill with teammates at the first summer practice of the Brooklyn United Youth Football league season on Sunday, Aug. 9, 2020, in Brooklyn borough of New York. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Mason Washington, 11, runs a drill with teammates at the first summer practice of the Brooklyn United Youth Football league season on Sunday, Aug. 9, 2020, in Brooklyn borough of New York. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Malachi Keller, 15, right, leans back in an office chair while watching a Black History Month police promotional video during a meeting with police at One Police Plaza in New York on Monday, Aug. 24, 2020. Keller's cousin Sharawn Vinson sought the help of Jeffrey Maddrey, chief of the NYPD's Community Affairs department, after police officers pointed guns at her 11-year-old son when they were searching for a shooting suspect in their apartment building. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Malachi Keller, 15, right, leans back in an office chair while watching a Black History Month police promotional video during a meeting with police at One Police Plaza in New York on Monday, Aug. 24, 2020. Keller's cousin Sharawn Vinson sought the help of Jeffrey Maddrey, chief of the NYPD's Community Affairs department, after police officers pointed guns at her 11-year-old son when they were searching for a shooting suspect in their apartment building. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Maddison Washington, 11, sits among balloons in the colors of her middle school as she prepares for her virtual graduation ceremony celebrated with a small group of family and friends in the living room of her three-bedroom apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Friday, Aug. 21, 2020. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Maddison Washington, 11, sits among balloons in the colors of her middle school as she prepares for her virtual graduation ceremony celebrated with a small group of family and friends in the living room of her three-bedroom apartment in the Brooklyn borough of New York on Friday, Aug. 21, 2020. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Maddison Washington, 11, stands at her bedroom mirror as she finishes getting ready for her virtual graduation from middle school on Friday, Aug. 21, 2020, in Brooklyn borough of New York. "Everybody else had a graduation, even her twin brother. ... And she has to have a virtual graduation," said Sharawn Vinson, Washington's mother. "So it makes you sit back and think, what is their life going to be like going forward, what's going to happen?" (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Maddison Washington, 11, stands at her bedroom mirror as she finishes getting ready for her virtual graduation from middle school on Friday, Aug. 21, 2020, in Brooklyn borough of New York. "Everybody else had a graduation, even her twin brother. ... And she has to have a virtual graduation," said Sharawn Vinson, Washington's mother. "So it makes you sit back and think, what is their life going to be like going forward, what's going to happen?" (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

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Maddison Washington, 11, stands beside a park bench where three young men were shot at her family's housing development in the Brooklyn borough of New York, on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020. Washington's mother sent her and her twin brother to stay with their father in North Carolina for part of the summer while she saved money, food stamps and Pandemic Electronic Benefit Transfers (PEBT) to ensure the family had enough food when the siblings returned. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)
Maddison Washington, 11, stands beside a park bench where three young men were shot at her family's housing development in the Brooklyn borough of New York, on Thursday, Aug. 13, 2020. Washington's mother sent her and her twin brother to stay with their father in North Carolina for part of the summer while she saved money, food stamps and Pandemic Electronic Benefit Transfers (PEBT) to ensure the family had enough food when the siblings returned. (AP Photo/Jessie Wardarski)

Credit: Jessie Wardarski

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